I have a new habit now.
When I hear the word, “future”, I have a tendency to look back into the past.
As I am trying to find the excitement in my past life, I somehow think that the same excitement would show up in my unknown/mysterious FUTURE life.
However, when I truly look back on my life, there is one huge event that screams all the negative emotions: hopelessness, sadness, dejected…
The event of my father‘s accident in 2015 and the subsequent 5 years of seeing him getting weaker each day and finally losing him on October 10, 2020, was the most painful period of my life.
Now, four years later, I still remember the most painful period clearly.
However, there is one difference I have that I did not have back then: awareness.
I am no longer the person who wishes my dad did not have the accident. Nor the angry person who screamed why my dad had to have the terrible accident or why he did not recover from it.
Instead, I am much more aware of the fleeting nature of life and how ALL of us will finish our lives one day.
I know this post is about the “excitement” about our future. However, My glass half empty tendency the very real(sad) life experiences gives me a real perspective on life, if not an exciting one.
To have an excited outlook on our future, going through the negative past events is a prerequisite.
Without the wisdom of past life experience (both good and bad), wishing for an exciting future would be a fruitless endeavour.
The colour, black stands out from the clean white background. To recognize the blackness, it requires the opposite background.
Our emotions (and recognition of those emotions) require the same contrast.
Without the sadness, we will not recognize the happiness.
All of us want the same things in life: physical health, financial security, or close relationships with family members/friends in the future.
I am learning to become excited about my future through life experiences, both good and bad…especially bad:)
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