What Would I Do When I Am Alone

This blog is kind of the Spinoff of “I Want To Fall Asleep With Waves All Night Long“. I mentioned during covid-19, as I need to get some fresh air when I was WFH, I visited me every Friday night. At that time, my life was messed, there was no such thing called routine. And I did not know what I was doing actually. Even though I was working, I was gaining experience, but I did not think about everything except “just do is”.

I believe one of the reasons for this is I was studying and working all the time and did not have the time to take a rest. I would like to keep spinning, but as I grew up I realized I can not change everything if I am the only one to keep working. Alternatively, there is no need to give me such big pressure and I need some time to enjoy my own life and the sunshine.

I have many friends, however, the closest ones left my city. I have never been so alone and I felt so lonely sometimes, plus the pressure of the pandemic that there is not much chance for socializing.

However, after I got my permanent job, my life is settled, I know more about what my life would be, and how I would like to spend my time. I have a different understanding of loneliness.

The truth is, everyone is alone. We all need to learn the ability to get along with our own. Everyone has a secret in his heart, that not everyone would understand. Socializing can solve the problem of solitariness but not loneliness.

I found writing is one of the ways that I can “solve” this loneliness. It focused on me to read so I can get inspiration for what I would like to write. I have not finished a book this year, but I know we need to keep reading, so I am glad as a blogger, I have to gain something so I can produce something. Blogging is keeping me reading and busy. Same as others, if I feel alone, I will find some hobby or even “treat life better”.

Some people attack the others who would like to take photos of the foods, but I think this is a good way to “treat life better”. Spend some time on one of the most important things of our life, eating. The food from the restaurant, or homemade is even better. This action of taking the photo is keeping a record of life, and maybe 1 year later, a food influencer will be born.

Same as the opinion on my other blog “I do not want to try hard…anymore…The discussion of Perfectionism & Epicureanism“, I do not give myself a result, or score to reach, I just do what I want to do. Persistence is very important. Our life is faster than before so we may be tired of seeing things are would have the result after a long term. But things would change if we keep doing them, ultimately.

Hope you can find your way to enjoy your loneliness.

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Yanfei